Lies

I used to tell myself a lie about the guys i date. Sometimes when you are in the beginning of a relationship you will notice that one is more interested in the other. Or, maybe one of the people is interested in a full blown relationship while the other is only looking for a sexual relationship. This has happened to me more than once now. It's always heartbreaking because if you are the one wishing you could get more serious, you obviously don't want to end the relationship... Even if they do only want you for sex. I'm sure that most of us girls have had the thought, "well maybe if I keep sticking around he will see how much I care about him and he will want to get more serious." WRONG! We lie to ourselves to make us think it's okay to keep hanging out with them. Of course if you both want the sexual relationship only than that's totally fine. So, keep in mind that this is for only couples that are on two different pages so to speak. My all time famous lie to myself is that when they say they love me, that they mean it...and even though they don't show it to me in the way we want them to, it's okay, because they are loving us as much as they possibly can. They are doing their very best to show us and we should be more appreciative. Again, WRONG!! We tend to get very discouraged at the point and time when we admit that we have being lying to ourselves. It sucks. So we head to our best friends for advice and support. Now, for me, I have alllll kinds of friends: ones in my predicament who sympathize with me, ones in my predicament who are still in denial that they are lying to themselves, and then thank GOD for the ones with the really great boyfriends who are very positive and upbeat and tell you, "let that loser go", "you deserve so much better", and my personal favorite, "stand up for yourself, for who you are and what you want. Be confident in yourself. Be happy and content being single, and when you are least expecting it the right one will come along!" without these friends of ours, we all would've turned emo because of all of these lies. So a good question is, "why do we start this entire viscous circle that hurts us in the end? Why don't we run at the first signs of this madness?" my only answer to us all is that we are GIRlS! It's what we do! When we love, we love with all we've got. So buckle up for this crazy roller coaster cause we've all got to ride it until we find Mr. Right!!!